A few Dreams, A Few Days Late
I realise that it has been a while since I have been on last. This is due to the fact that I injured my hand, I have had time issues, and that I have beem on place an unusual amount of time. I also realise that I am far behind on the posted dreams. I will correct this soon as I plan to write the five or six entries I have on this site. I have not been dreaming too many times though. I due believe that this is due to the fact that I have been staying up untill 5:30 Am.

I have quit as a Wiz at the Brothel, a palace chat, and begun budgeting my time more wisely. I will post hese dreams as soon as possible.

Ugh...One of Many.
While it has been some time now, since i last updated, I have had very few dreams that i could remember. I will start woth the most recent, and the most complete.

(I dreamt that I was online, speaking to a friend, Ashy. While there, an AV of a nude male was shown. I said, "Wish it was me.". I laughed, but did not mean it.)

(Sudden Scene Switch)

(I was walking through a parking lot, when I happened upon a disheveled station wagon. i went inside and started rummaging through what articals were inside. I found remnants of a school girl's belongings, including a back pack, and assorted school implements. For some reason, I started to steal the items. Two men came upon the scene, and it became almost a frenzy, as we all struggled to claim as much of the discarded items. At one point, one of the men grabbed a book from my hand. He flipped through the pages looking for money. I condoned him for that, and said that there was no need for this.)

(One of the items I happened upon, was an old painting. It was of an old italian diner. I climbed from the car to discover that we were at the diner.)

(An old man emerged from the diner and shooed us off, yet I remained, with a third man. We offered consolation to the old man. When he told us that the owner of the vehicle was his daughter, we offered to find her...for a price. I dont know what my motivations were at this point.)

(Sudden Scene Switch)

(I walked into an old cabin, that I knew that I had been in before. I believe that I was looking for clues as to his daughters dissapearance. My sister, Casey, entered the room that I was in. I sat down neer the closet, and started looking through all of the clothes. My mother came in and said that I should change quickly. A man came in, and I said something about not needing to change. My mother then scolded me for saying how poor we were.)

(I followed thes two into a large dining area, which slowly turned into an old fashioned resteraunt. It looked like a bar/steakhous. I sat down next to an old man, that I knew to be my grandfather. I also somehow knew that he grew up in a fishing town.)

This starts getting odd.

(Puff Daddy walked in, and is followed by his crew, many of which, are midgets. He started talking crap towards me. I told him to go fuck himself. It was then that the problems started. He placed a $20 bill on the table, and told me to take it and shut up. I left it on the table.)

(After a bit of going back and forth with verbal jaunts, Puffy decided to get up to leave. Two of his people ran by and grabbed the money and ran out the door. I quickly pursued them. i ended up tackling the smaller one, and sent the larger one reeling. This almost led to a fight, but Puffy left. My grandfather then related to me the days of old...)

(Sudden Scene Switch)

(I saw Charlie Sheen, dressed in a fake muscle suit, that was ridiculously large. It looked like flesh tone body armor.)

That was it... I will post my other dreams later on tonite.

Another Odd Glimpse into My Psyche.
(My dream for the night of June 10th, started with me in a school classroom. I knew that I was the most popular person, and could get away with near anything. While the teacher kept talking, I switched seats, to be near the window, and to be surrounded by a group of girls that were flirting with me. I started making out with the girl in front of me, which made the others jealous. I just laughed.)

(The teacher, suddenly started transforming, into a siamese-twin like monster. He grabbed one of the girls and flung her out the window. He then followed after her.)

I would like to point out that at first, I *knew* that we were on an upper floor, and that when he threw her out of the window, we were on the first floor.

(I ran to the front of the room and said, "I know why all of you are so crazy. This is some part of my crazy dream. This must not be real." They all laughed.)

(I ran down the stairs, as the school started being evacuated. A cute girl in a wheelchair told me that she was going to loot, that this part of the school was for the disabled, and that she deserved it for her trouble. I knew something bad was going to happen, and I warned her.)

(I later caught up with her, as she was driving a new car. She offered me a ride, and I accepted. Everything was getting very hallucinogenic.)

-Sudden Scene Switch-

(I was out of body, looking at a car wreck. I overheard one police officer stating to another that the driver had stolen the car. "The cause of the crash?" he said. "The car was made for a one-armed man. The driver thought that they had put the turn signal for one direction, but had actually made it the other.")

-Sudden Scene Switch-

(I was running between apartments, and I knew that something was chasing me. I knew that a numbered apartment was mine, but I could not find the one. He was gaining on me.)

(I ran into the nearest apartment building, and ran to the top floor. I pushed my way into one apartment, and closed the door. I was surrounded by oddly looking people. i somehow knew that I was trapped, and that this was, "his" apartment.

Dream On June 9th.
(I dreamt that I was having sex with a black lady, but I did not want to. I kept trying to get her to stop, because I was not attracted to her personally. She bacame very upset when I told her that she was, "OK" but that I was not attracted. I did not want to hurt her feelings.)

-Sudden Scene Switch-

(I was then in the midst of a large operation. I was in a planning room with several men that I knew to be in organised crime. We were to infiltrate.)

-Sudden Scene Switch-

(A man and I ran across a field, covered with snow. We stripped out of our cloths as we ran, untill we were both in wetsuits. We ran into a train station where we met a mafia contact. We were given a payment, for whatever mission we had done. We were told that our next mission was to retrieve something from a locker. The man then boardedthe train, and I left with the agent. We ran outside the train station and slid across a lake that was frozen over. We went into a long, open-sided structure, and stole some custodian clothes. When we emerged, several forest rangers were there. We told them that we had to leave with a package, and they didn't mind. We grabbed the package, and waved to a group of kids that were there. I talked to a female ranger, that had a few bear cubs. I did not want to leave, but did so anyway.

When we left, we ran towards a large hill made entirely of snow. I tossed the package to the other man. We were near the top of the hill, when a lady and a man emerged, and started firing assault rifles from below. the lady looked like a professional wrestler, and the man was Bill Murray. We fired a rifle that we suddenly had, and hit the woman. Bill merely laughed at the rounds, but was pinned from the fire.

The man then jumped on Bill Murry, knocking him out. I walked over to the lady and stripped off her jumpsuit. for some reason, I thought to myself, "If she was smaller, I would have thought her attractive.". We then made our way to a safe house.

The news labled the lady as a cop-killer, and we were off scott-free. My last thoughts before waking were, "That should have given me enough points for a +2 ring of disruption.".

My Dream a Few Nights Ago.
(In my dream, I walked into a small corner store, during the middle of a downpour. I realized that I was very hungery, and decided to get something to eat. I waited in line, at a counter that reminds me of a 7-11 counter. When I got to the front of the line, I pre-paid for some food, yet I only paid in coins. From the looks of it, I only had a dollar or two. I went and grabbed a soda, and a loaf of bread. I asked if I could leave the stuff at the counter. The lady replied that I could. -Sudden Scene Switch- i was then in a large grocery store, but it only changed as I turned around. I walked over to a counter, which had a small boy sitting on it. He looked like my brother did, when he was about 5 or 6. The boy was with an old man who looked like the Orville Redenbocker popcorn man. The old man was soaking, but the boy was dry. I started to eat some of my bread, as the boy started talking. He told me that he had two large scars, one on his head, and one on his inner thigh. I could see the one near his mouth, and he told me of the one below. I was then offered a ride by the old man. I accepted the ride, as it was raining even more heavily. The kid then offered me a pint of rice, which I gladly took, yet i was suspicious. I started eating the rice very quickly, yet stopped when I bit down upoin something hard. It took all I had not to gag. I stopped eating and just stood there motionless. A white spider crawled from my mouth, and I gagged. I spit out several teeth, that were not mine.

First New Entry
Since I have been staying up untill five in the morning, chatting with people on Palace, I have gotten very little sound sleep. I have had no chance...no, I have had Little chance to remember what it was that I have dreamed. All of my life, I have tried to be as honest as possible, now is no exception. What little I have dreamed, was of nature that I did not want to share, or, so fragmentaty, that I believed it a waste of time. Well, I have decided to change the emphasis of this blog. I will now put dreams in brackets (like so), and refer to my daily life as a column. I would like...well, not really, to share a few fragments of my last dreams, as well as a few I have written down from years ago.

*gets out sketch pads*

June 4th, 2003
(My dream was fragmented, at best. I was siituated in a small house, much like a victoian style house, however. there were several rooms hat i walked into. I was apparently moving out, along with a girl,) "This I knew was Jamie, a freind's girlfriend, who I have never felt particularily sexually attracted to." (I kept asking her a question, something to do with why we were rushing. She smiled and came to embrace me. She laughed a bit, not like she did in real life, but a nicer, more legitimate laugh. She asked me for something, and i went to get it for her. When I returned, most of the stuff was packed. It then dawned on me that she was going without me. I was depressed at this, but we talked about it, and then made love.) "I know this is not what you want to hear, and that is why I, at first, did not write it. but, because of the need for completeness, I have felt that ALL of my remembered dreams must be logged.

June 5th, 2003

"Short, but sweet?" (I dreamt that I was still on the palace program. Someone asked me to design an AV for them...a box.)

June 6th, 2003

"I know that ther was MUCH more to this dream, however it slipped from me as I was writing, as I normally remember dreams in reverse order. So, from the end, until I lost that elusive bit..." (I dreamt that I got onto the palace program, as I had not been before. Once there, I kept getting dis-connectd. It made me very angry. Some one said, "It's not WHERE you go..." and I was puzzled. I then saw two men discussing a cow's picture. I joined the discussion to hear that this was the best picture that he could find. Th cow looked like crap, as it was very blurry, and had patchy skin.)

April 7th, 2003
"The location of this dream was rather familiar, and was part of an ever-changing reaccuring dream." (The set, as I would like to call it, consisted of five main rooms. When looked at from above, it was a large cathedral, with a tower at the upper-left, a kitchen at the lower-right, a great hall ing the middle section, and a church at the upper-right. the cathedral consisted of many more rooms, but these were the only ones that I ventured into. The tower was only partialy constructed, on the inside, and had many crossing support beams and the like. A set of confusing, and very steep, steps rose around the inside in a counter-clockwise fashion. The great hall, to the east, had several long tables in it, and was constructed almost like a high school cafeteria. At the walls, were several shelf like things, which people could place objects upon. The kitchen was modernly built, yet had a staff that reminded me of the childhood pictures of a medieval cook. It was quite large, and always bustling. The church, for lack of a better word, had about six pews total, and an altar to the north side. It had a large book apon it, which in all of these dreams, I knew to be evil in nature. I would later refer to this book as the "Necronomicon" for lack of a better word. The church was always dimly lit, as it had red tapered candles, instead of neon lighting. I knew the main part of the castle/cathedral to be to the north of this location. As I said previosly, there were five locations, and I have only explained four. The fifth location was a large field, surrounded by walls, and having a large swimming pool in the middle. It had no physical way to enter it, as I will explain later, but, it had been located to the west of both the tower and the kitchen.)

(This particular dreamstarted with myself in the tower section. I was jumping from beam to beam, going over some and under other, as I did as a child.) "I was never content to stay IN the playset, but had to make spectacular jumps from one obstacle to another." (I watched as two females entered the section and beckoned me with their eyes. I slowly dropped from each board and followed them into the main hall. Of the two females, one looked strangly like Angelina Jolie. She was dressed in dark colors, and almost slid when she walked. The other, was an attractive blonde, who was slightly transparent. I knew her to be some type of spectre at this point of inspection. yet, I felt I had known them for a long time, and may even be their friend and confidant. I walked with these women towards a table/section at the east side of the hall. upon arival, I noticed that I myself, was dead. i had walked through several tables, and had not even blinked. I felt a large gash, running from the middle of my chest, to the left side of my neck. This must have been a type of haunt for a mass of undead. I left the girls, who were now socializing, to explore. I went first to the church. Gaining entry, I stared at the amazing sights before me. The whole of the room shimmered with the candle lights. I crept towards the raised dias that the altar was on, to gain a better look. Once near, a man entered the room. I stopped, as the figure seemed domineering, and was intimidating. I quickly left the priest in black, and made my way into the main hall again. I walked past several nonchalant figures that sat on the floor near the wall. One of them was trhe blonde girl that I had seen previosly. I wandered towards the kitchen, and sneaked a peek. All that I saw were cooks, scurrying to and fro, and wandered off. I went, then, and sat next to the females that I had been with previously, and started chating with them. I was part of their croud. But, as luck would always have me, I upset a third female, who angrily stated, "You are my girl!") "I have no idea what this means, so don't ask.)

Friday, Sept 3/10/17/24, 1999

"Worded as I have it written in my old journal..." (I dreamt that people, mom especialy, found my secret. I tried to contain and lie to keep it down. Apartment was 3 story pagoda-Japanese style house.) "Here there was a picture of a balcony I sketched." (Was in Virginia, yet had a cul-de-sac. There was a girl. Becky? Jackie? Who?

Saturday, Sept 4/11/18/25 1999

"Worded as I have it written in my old journal..." (Dreamt that i was a swat team bomb squad man on vacation in the wilderness man with beard took supplies and created several nuclear rockets shot one plane in window, black smoke. In one scene I saw boards in water to determine direction most of team gone.) "Here I had placed a small picture of a lightsaber looking tube. It had the words, ""clear plastic tube, explosive, baking soda, blast cap"" listed in a column beside the picture" (I then went into a small ferret-tank and followed. In another scene I opened armed door and used radio to disarm bomb, new man pissed!) "Man, what a lack of writing skills I had when groggy..."

Saturday, November 6/13/20/27, 1999

"Worded as I have it written in my old journal..." (In my dream, we were at the farm, but it was also like camp. We split into groups. I had the flashlight. I found a skinny man with big eyes, he told me to meet him at 8:30. He turned into an ostrich, another -?- larger animal tried to stop him but he ran. At the barn I saw a cloaked figure it turned out to be one of a group of friends. We explored. Walter and I had our flashlights, Ed and another man had the big ones. I came upon a temple of Golems, I dashed past and hid in a room. It had about 20-30 women in 1 long bed, I was over them on a canopy. A crazy archer-man tried to shoot them. I soon figured that I could join the, female dominant tribe.) "Yes, the punctuation IS intentional, that was how it was written." (But men could only escape their rooms from 12:00-12:30. Time was flying! I met Ed who seemed surprised to meet me. Throughout the dream I saw Blair-Witch style symbols. I also noticed an evil. A girl trying to light an oil candle would have burned if not for me.)

These are the only dreams that I had written in this particular journal. But, I used to hav several at once, and they were never organized. So perhaps I may find more one day. If anyone actually reads this, and wants clarification of anything, I will do the best I can. Just e-mail me with "dreams" as the subject.

A Change Of Ways
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A few pieces to puzzle.
This dream, as far as I can remember, started with me being driven off into the middle of nowhere. I was going to an older relative to spend the summer. When we arrived, we pulled up along side an old white-washed house, complete with delapitated shed. I walked with the person driving, never getting a good look, through a series of scattered bicycles and such. When I entered, I knew that it was my grandparents house, and that I was to live here, in the living room/den. I settled amongst the antiques and sparse furniture, trying to blend in with my new gaurdians.

(Piece Of Dream Forgotton)

I was then LARPing with a few of my new friends. I believe that we were LARPing, however, everyone was genuinely assured that there WERE things outside. It soon started to rain, but we were sheltered inside of the school enterance that we were huddled in. Every one decided to pair off with a friend and run towards the cars that were in the parking lot. And everyone kept looking towards the sky. I, along with a few I believe, felt afraid of SOMETHING.

I was paired off with a girl that I must have felt attracted to. I kept offering to go first to help her avoid the danger, but she would not let me. We finally agreed to go together, but I felt it was for the worst.

(Sudden Scene Switch)

We were soon out of the car and in a place reminiscant of my old camp's arts and crafts center. It was a wooden enclosure that looked like an attic, but was large as a basketball court. We all lined up inside of the attic, paired off in the groups that we arrived in. The female that I had travelled with decided to make a trade with two guys, one of whom was my friend Dustin. Dustin came over to me as she walked towards the man that she wanted to be with. It made me angery and jealous to such a degree. I felt it hard to contain myself.

We then talked about our past LARP experiences, and I soon found that whatever this threaght was, was real. We had decided to pretend to fight against the forces of the dark in order to mask our feer of this same threaght that had apparently caused the disappearance of so many of our friends. I then fell into line with the rest of the group as someone entered the room. Our leader had arrived. He walked up and down the rank and file that we had made, looking over all of us and sizing us up.

After a few passes, he pointed to Dustin and then to the rafters, ordering him to do some inverted sit-ups. Dustin did what he asked and was selected. After a while he returned to me and did the same. I refused at first, pointing out that I was far to big to fit my feet above the rafters without somehow making a hole in the ceiling. He then ordred me to do such. So, I made a hole in the ceiling and started to hang from the rafter. Rain poured over me as I did the exercises, and I felt somehow that I was made a target to whatever was outside. I was afraid at first, but I qiuckly overcame my fear. When I was done, I felt a surge of power. I was more fit than I have ever bee, and I could take on anything.

(Sudden Scene Switch)

We were then standing outside of a dilapitated convience store. It had a few gas pumps that were probably the only ones for miles. This was the most desolate place that I could think of.

As I needed something from inside, as everyone else did, I went in. I did not know what it was that I wanted, I just KNEW that there was something inside that I needed. As I wandered the crouded aisles for whatever it was that i needed, i saw all of the others talking and joking. They were having so much fun, and I felt as some type of outsider. I quickly grabbed a bottle of milk and left, not knowing what it was that I needed.

Outside, I walked around the corner to where a few of the people were messing around and talking. A few where eating what it was that they had purchased. I gave my milk to some random person and kept walking across the lot towards the back of the shop.

Once ther, I found a select few, who seemed different, seated in various places around a tractor. I walked towards this machine, with the thought of climbing it, and looking over the fence that bordered the back of the shop. One look over the fence frightened me. Their were vast fields full of old machinery, long forgotton, but still plying their trade. Oil rigs slowly churned crude oil into patches amongst the barren land, and small fires lit the landscape. It was one of the most bleak pieces of land that I had seen, but I somehow knew that this is where the oil must have been taken from to make the sttion work.

Suddenly, a dog raced towards me and barked. I stumbled off of the arm digger to find that the dog was barely on the end of his leash, and to my suprise, had three heads. I knew that this meant something.

(Sudden Scene Switch)

I was now working as a heavl laborer, and had the looks to show it. I was extremely well physiqued, yet covered in grease/dirt. I knew that for all of my toil, I made but change, yet I did not care. I knew that I was in need of something that this provided me.

The door opened and a female walked in. I somehow knew that she was my wife or fiance. I had the distinct impression that I was the equivilant of a male-order-groom. When she came in, she looked slightly fearful, and I walked towards her. She placed some groceries on a table and kept walking from me. In a state of shock, I followed her. It felt as if she wanted to be with me, but she couldn't. She was afraid of something.

I kept trying to embrace her, yet she walked away from me each time. I finally gave up when faced with so much rejection. I sat down and asked her what the problem was. I asked what was wrong with me. She started to weep and fled the room. The only word that I could remember, was uttered by my lips. I had said "Please."

I then walked over to a window to watch as she left. i knew that I had lost her for good, yet could not figure out why. As I pulled back a curtain, i saw four men in black suits exit a sedan. The first thought to my mind was that these men were from the FBI. I knew that it wasn't I who they were after. I knew also that she had not left, but remained on the other side of the door. I begged her to return, but she would not. I then took a handful of change and placed it on the counter. It was all I had.

(Sudden Scene Switch...And It Gets Weird)

I was then downstairs, in the den again. Yet I was still the older self, dressed as a laborer. I cried as I went into a kitchen and grabbed some sausages. I started cutting them and placing toothpicks into them. When I had made a few, I tried to place them into a tacklebox, but they would not fit. I started to angerly tear them and shove them into the slots to MAKE them fit, but they still would not. The toothpicks kept getting in the way.

Another weird one...two.
My first dream of the night involved myself as a role-play gamer. I was actually walking around experiencing the sights and smells of my character. My first mission was to go to a sschool as a temporary worker. When I arrived, I was greeted by a lady who explained that I would be working in the copy room, but I could earn more XP in the hallways. I then donned my sword and set out. It wasn't long before I entered the hallways, which were lit only by the embers of torches that were spent. It was covered it webs, and appeared to be made of flagstone between the lockers. As I walked I heard a noise up ahead...AMBUSH! Two skeletons attacked me from both sides, but I made quick work of them, and placed their treasure in my backpack. I then picked up the great-maul that one had dropped, and sheathed my sword. I soon came across a section that had about 30 gold ingots, the size of those small hershy bars you get at halloween, dispersed amongst chalk on the chalk board. I started talking to the GM at this point, arguing that no-one would use gold ingots as writing devices, and that gold came in larger bars. He told me that here things were different. I left the gold, (I Don't Know Either) and walked into the mens shower and locker room. It was huge! The entire expanse had thousands of lockers, and many showers. I started to go to the bathroom, but the urinals were extremely high on the wall. I don't know why. I then walked over to an opened duffle bag, and found hundreds of SP shirts. They were all the same brand that I wore a few years back. I grabbed two, and headed back to the gold. The GM then informed me that one of the gold ingots was missing. I didn't care. I then left for the safe spot across the street.
(Phone Rings, Waking Me)
In my second dream, I was at my friend Jason's house, although it didn't look like his house. He said he just recieved a temp job as well, (Reference To Previous Dream?) and that he had to go to the colledge. When we arrived, the guy from the show "Major Dad" was there. His wife was as well. They were talking about some military stuff. We then walked up to them and played them in a game of basketball. Major Dad was on our side. We won, but the girls started talking crap to us. Then the lady smacked Major Dad disrespectfully. He almost struck back, but pulled because she was in uniform, and a higher ranking officer. She laughed as he stewed in anger. I told her, "I don't care who you are, I will smack the shit out of you." And then some reference to having "balls" and "we've got more game than" or something. It was witty. She then walked over to the wrestling ring that was suddenly in the b-ball court. The Insane Clown Posse was ther on her side, along with, (Please Excuse My Dream) some type of dominatrixes or something. They were all wearing saucer caps and military-like latex outfits with no ass in the pants. I was to take them all on. I then kicked several asses. However I regretted beating on the women so badly. Once, two women had me pinned half-way, but I wasn't even trying to get up. I was just making sure that I wouldn't get pinned. I must be a horndog in my dreams...
Oh well.

Short Dream for a Long Night
(As I Spent Most Of The Night Dealing With Certain "Issues" That Were Cropping Up At My Friends House.)

As far as I can tell, I only lost a small fragment of this dream. I stood in a small entry-way, as found in many nice resteraunts. I was speaking to a black female who wore a pant-suit and a long coat. She was telling me to grab what I could and leave. I apparently was disposing of evidence to a crime, as I picked up a pistol, and two knives. I put them in the trenchcoat and started to leave. As I left, I was told that the police were on 28th st, about 15 minutes from where I live. I exited and started walking towards my house, which was about a ten minute walk. I woke up at this point. My next dream will hopefully be longer, as I plan to grab more than an hour's worth of sleep.